Temptation Recall
must forget everything ... Is this an effect of writing? As ... progresses and as my review, I feel, little by little, become Saint-Loup. No, of course, the authenticity of its concrete actions, but in his refusal sovereign the world that led him to disappear.
There is now a temptation in me from the convent, more exactly, since it had little attraction for rituals, for a solitary retreat in this lost land that the Bégude in its triple walls of vines, walls and Park seems to be. Leave everything and everyone, locked in this closed space where humanity is reduced to its simplest expression: the passage of a weekly cleaning lady, the occasional intervention of any worker, a gardener sometimes glimpsed, mechanical noise perceived in the distance ... For the rest, Internet suffice: consult a bank account, spend the few controls you need, sometimes afford a curiosity about anything, observe from the outside, the Brownian motion of the world ... But, that it is difficult to break habits - would it not indulging too much complacency, would it not be better really step aside, to deny, as Saint-Loup, all my previous attachments, to obliterate, to become anonymous, to rebuild anything to me, n ' more person ... Forty years ago, that life is no longer behind me before but I can not allow myself to be ... error, without more, what ever ... I've been
Tonight, the French cultural center's director took me back to Berlin by car. We chatted amiably: She believes what she does, seems happy to sacrifice his life to a multitude of administrative tasks. Am I a better example for him to propose? "Many to one, little one, the trick does not change anything ... Your time is yours, but you do not have all the time, only yours." Said, in his diwan, Samuel Ha Naguib, the Andalusian, but he at least had led many other battles ...
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