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my kids look at my adult world

I'm thinking. I think. I love Russia. I've lived in it, I really liked everything about her. in bright, child-like. then somehow fell out of love. It seemed to me miserable. remained only love of friends, relatives. and then once again fell in love. after the Germans. through their perception. she suddenly very different was. touching. and an attractive other. and suddenly became clear that I was not all just love it, but somehow also permeated it. that it is in me. is alive. and expensive. and I love to visit Russia. her to see, hear, learn, it's all feel. but every time I understand that I come into a foreign country. but I it does not own it I do not mine. just wondering is it for yourself opening. very interesting. but I have there is always a certain fear. something do not, that someone is on you just nakrichit. even doing nothing, but someone nakrichit. even just cross the street. fear. go to the last metro to the Germans, when the next train jumping like an angry ape the Nazis. fear. evening. fear. night. even in the daytime to enter the staircase. the elevator. some fears are everywhere. may This is because all unusual. if I had to go to the entrance is not 7 times a year, and every day, I would have this fear, perhaps, had passed. but it's scary live in it. to it, this was commonplace. that it was normal, just go into another car, when you see people with swastikas on their sleeves and shoes. glad that everything worked out. or just exceed the step behind you when someone goes on poluosveschennomu Square, and then console myself that this is only invented fears rather than reality. know dozens of horror stories that kasnulis your friends. sometimes macabre stories. sigh. and understand prodolzhyut that they live on, side by side. in this case. fear. that this is just fine. so. next. in this case. fear. scary is what's normal. but not that scary. afraid that Russia - is not something that you love, but that scary. it's all the same. there are other countries with other fears. do not forget to put in a school satchel mask just in case. it's scary. lose everything, absolutely everything for some minutes, due to natural phenomena. scary. Umrah from starvation, epidemics, it is about poverty. scary. but in all these countries I do not have such a feeling arises that someone it anyway. and in Russia ... scary.